Tuesday, January 20, 2026

Between Ferries and Footnotes

The morning began with a 14-kilometre harbour run, the kind that reminds me why Gothenburg is at its best when taken at an unhurried Retrovarvet pace. Somewhere mid-run, I hopped on the ferry over to Lindholmen, letting the legs cool while the city slid past at water level. There is something appealing about treating public transport as an interval session: a short pause, a change of scenery, and then back into motion on the other side.

Later in the day, the focus shifted indoors. Ten kilometres on the rowing machine at Nordic Wellness Örgryte may not be quite as poetic as a winter harbour run, but it has its own appeal in its brutal honesty and steadily accumulating sense of effort, as I work my way down those fifty montly kilometres of indoor rowing.

Perhaps the real milestone of the day, however, was finally carving out enough time to begin reading Postsecondary Educational Opportunities for Students with Special Education Needs, which I hope will serve as a conceptual starting point for a new article project.

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Monday, January 19, 2026

Whitish January

Halfway through the first month of the year, I am already seeing clear health benefits from abstaining from alcohol, something that is made very easy by being alone with the kids. More specifically, my VO₂ max has been on a steady climb ever since that last bottle of Malbec, which I assume has something to do with rebounding blood plasma volumes, higher HRV, and better recovery overall.

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Sunday, January 18, 2026

The very last 2-4-1

When Anna and I cancelled our trip to South Africa, I assumed that the very last 2-4-1 voucher was gone for good. To my surprise, however, SAS decided to extend its validity until 31 March (with travel possible up to 330 days after that), which means that I am now facing a First World Problem of almost historic proportions. As a result, I invested in the first issue of Vagabond magazine of the year to look for some inspiration ;-)

Otherwise, I am finally back to running more than 100 kilometres per week, with Strava helpfully pointing out a “substantial jump compared to previous weeks”. As always, the challenge is consistency, but as long as I avoid catching a cold, I will aim for another 100k week.

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Saturday, January 17, 2026

The kids these days

With Eddie organizing an old-school LAN party for six-seven of his friends today, I got my fair share of contemporary meme culture, ritual burnings of German exams, and the deep joy that only a screen can bring (to paraphrase Tage Danielsson) – even if one door remote. By the time the party was over, I had submitted my grading protocols and followed the runners of the Sandsjöbacka Trail as they struggled through the snow (luckily for me, this year’s race had sold out before I got a chance to register).

Considering how much the world has changed since the early 1990s, there is a certain comfort in the fact that the kids could just as easily have been me back then, with the same non-diet Coke, teenage jokes, and pizza. Smelling the pizza, I could not resist making a schiacciata with mozzarella and pesto rosso. As for bread, the day had otherwise begun with a bagel and twelve kilometres in the forest which, unlike 185 kilometres, were just lovely.

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Friday, January 16, 2026

3x mid-January

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Wednesday, January 14, 2026

Rollitos

The rain kept falling all night, and by morning the snow had clearly taken a beating. A bagel with Manchego cheese wrapped in Serrano ham then felt like a well-deserved treat in light of both the “vederväder” outside and yesterday's marathon madness. At least, my lunch run around Skatås was not particularly painful, nothing like the aftermath of my first marathons back in 2018 and 2019.

Since most throwbacks here on Rawls & Me tend to drift toward the tropics, I thought I should share this one from Umeå, a decade ago. Much as I appreciate living down south, life in the High North certainly had its charms, especially once I embraced cross-country skiing.

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Tuesday, January 13, 2026

Rawdogging

For my first treadmill marathon, I wanted to seek out a gym with as few distractions as possible – no music, no screens, no nothing – to fully embrace last year’s trend of “rawdogging”. Originally popularized in relation to long-haul flying, rawdogging is the opposite of all the scrolling and screens promising instant gratification: it is about forcing yourself to be fully present.

Luckily, my imagination needs very little prompting, so by the time I finished those 42 kilometres, I had been to both ends of the Pacific, climbed the hills of Alvados, and replayed conversations that never quite end. Somewhere after kilometre thirty, when the legs had stopped negotiating and simply got on with it, the absence of distraction began to feel like a relief. There was nothing but the slow, stubborn unfolding of time. Rawdogging, it turns out, is not about asceticism or nostalgia. It is about reclaiming the basic human capacity to stay with a thought, a feeling, or a stretch of time without immediately anaesthetising it. Forty-two kilometres on a treadmill may not be for everyone, but the impulse behind it probably should be.

As for my performance, I was positively surprised to be able to sustain a sub-5 min/km pace while keeping my average heart rate at 149 bpm. I took two short breaks to buy liquids and eat a banana, but kept the watch running throughout. Still, I do not want to count this as an official PB: there was no elevation (and, obviously, zero wind). One day, though, I would like to attempt this on a real marathon race course.

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Sunday, January 11, 2026

Gym buddies

Once William and I arrived at the shiny new gym at Lilla Bommen, we discovered that the staff had already gone home for the day, so we had to head over to NW Domkyrkan to get him properly signed up. As with everything from downhill skiing to fencing, William turned out to be a quick learner, and he surprised me by managing a full 80 kg on the leg press.

Today, I woke up to –21 degrees and, with my Airtrim breathing mask still down in Halmstad, decided to skip my planned morning run. Just taking the kids out for a walk was enough to convince me that this was the right decision – I really have no desire to flirt with cold-induced asthma or anything similar. In any case, this Arctic spell is not expected to last; by mid-next week, it should already be raining again.

Saturday, January 10, 2026

Real feel

With a real-feel temperature of −17 degrees, I did my signature harbour run in Gothenburg, covering 24 kilometres under icy blue skies. For all my mixed emotions about this city, each kilometre carries its own memories, and sunny winter days like these are enough to chase away even the longest shadows.

Once home, I made oven-baked salmon for the kids. Later in the afternoon, I am looking forward to heading down to the new Nordic Wellness club at Lilla Bommen with William who, having turned 11, is now allowed to have a gym membership like the rest of the family.

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Friday, January 09, 2026

Delulu

Sharing a bottle of "El Esteco" Malbec from northern Argentina, my thoughts wandered not only to the parks of Buenos Aires, but across geopolitical fault lines. With the caveat that there may be things I do not know, Trump’s repeated threats to annex Greenland simply appear delulu (to borrow the latest internet term), a spectacle – and a strategic catastrophe. Existing treaties already grant American troops effectively unlimited access to Greenland, and as for commodities, you can certainly buy quite a lot before it even begins to approach the stock-market turmoil that would follow any annexation, as European investors would withdraw their capital.

Otherwise, the grading season is in full swing. Yesterday alone, I received six more theses to assess, on everything from gender-neutral conscription to AI use in Swedish municipalities, so I better get back to work. But before I sign off, I should mention that, after 25 years of negotiations, the EU and Mercosur finally approved a free-trade agreement today which sends a strong signal in favour of mutually beneficial rules-based trade. 

Wednesday, January 07, 2026

2030, revisited (2015–2026)

Eleven years ago, I wrote a short text about the year 2030. Revisiting it after a snowy hike with Eddie, is an oddly disorienting experience. On the one hand, much of what I worried about in 2015 has come to pass with depressing predictability: political fragmentation, the resurgence of reactionary identity politics, and a deepening scepticism toward both globalization and growth. On the other hand, several of the assumptions underpinning my optimism about how these trends might be countered have turned out to be more fragile than I then appreciated.

The sense of an intellectual vacuum that I described – the absence of compelling, forward-looking visions capable of mobilizing mass politics – has, if anything, become more acute. The academic dominance of Malthusian framings has not receded. Degrowth, once a marginal critique, is now a respectable and increasingly institutionalized position, even as it remains politically implausible at scale. What I perhaps underestimated in 2015 was not the persistence of these ideas, but their ability to colonize moral language: austerity rebranded as virtue and resignation as responsibility.

At the same time, my critique of “ecological elites” now reads as prescient in a way I did not fully intend. The gap between the rhetoric of sacrifice and the lived realities of those doing the preaching has widened considerably. Climate politics has become ever more performative, ever more obsessed with symbolic consumption choices, while structural questions of energy abundance, industrial capacity, and technological risk-taking remain conspicuously under-addressed. In that sense, the wine tastings have multiplied.

Where I was too optimistic, however, was in my confidence that growth – once politically reclaimed – would function as a relatively straightforward solvent for social and political pathologies. The 2010s and early 2020s have shown that growth alone is neither sufficient nor politically neutral. Even where growth has occurred, it has often been uneven, financialized, and decoupled from the lived experience of security and dignity for large parts of the population. The promise that rising wages and bottom-up growth would naturally restore optimism has been undercut by housing crises, platform economies, and a pervasive sense that institutions no longer work for anyone in particular.

My faith in the EU as a delayed but ultimately disciplining force for necessary reform also looks more ambivalent in hindsight. If anything, we have seen a politics of permanent crisis management, in which long-term investment is crowded out by short-term stabilization and moralized disputes over responsibility. What I failed to anticipate was how exhaustion itself would become a governing condition.

Perhaps the most striking thing, rereading this today, is how much of my argument hinges on agency: the belief that societies could still choose boldness over caution, ambition over restraint, and expansion over retrenchment. In the intervening years, we have instead seen the normalization of risk aversion as a political virtue. The Apollo metaphor now feels almost scandalous in its confidence. Yet I am less convinced than ever that this confidence was misplaced. If anything, the succession of overlapping crises – financial, pandemic, geopolitical, climatic – has demonstrated that risk is always unavoidable. The only real question is whether we confront it deliberately or stumble into it unprepared.

The sections on retirement systems, demographic pressure, and intergenerational conflict have aged uncomfortably well. These issues now dominate political agendas across much of the OECD, often crowding out precisely the long-term investments I argued were necessary. The dynamic I warned about – scapegoating immigrants or other countries rather than seeking structural reform – has become routine rather than exceptional.

Finally, the most speculative part of the original text – the appeal to space, planetary limits, and the necessity of thinking beyond a single finite Earth – now feels less like science-fictional excess and more like an unresolved provocation. While we are still far from becoming a multi-planetary species in any meaningful sense, the underlying point remains intact: a politics that frames human aspiration itself as the problem is ultimately incompatible with survival, let alone justice.

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Winter Wednesday

Waking up to two decimetres of fresh snow and an orange weather warning from SMHI, I had no choice but to skip my planned Skatås run. With trams cancelled and sidewalks buried, just getting to Nordic Wellness felt more akin to Höga Kusten Winter Trail than a city walk. I ended up doing some weight training and another 10k on the treadmill, and was happily surprised to find Lilla Sur still open – one of their cinnamon buns certainly made the trek worthwhile.

In the real world, Trump has been busy undermining international norms by abducting Venezuelan President Nicolás Maduro and by doubling down on the claim that a military takeover of Greenland is “always an option”. As with Putin in Ukraine, it takes a very different outlook on the world to understand the logic behind this kind of self-harm.

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Tuesday, January 06, 2026

Ariane 5

With his new 3D printer, Eddie has been busy printing an Ariane 5 rocket, while I have been clearing out the basement and shuttling things to the recycling station. With another ten centimetres of snow expected overnight, the ovinter is definitely over, and I am grateful that I have already returned the rental car to Circle K.

Sadly, my cross-country skis are still in Kiruna. Given how underwhelming recent winters in Gothenburg have been, leaving them there seemed like a sensible decision at the time. Frustratingly, the weekend forecast now looks spectacular, with –10 degrees and sunshine, so regret has begun to set in.

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Back to Berlin

My promise to stay on the ground until Easter did not last long. With the kids having their sportlov in mid-February, they both really wanted to return to Berlin after our visit in the fall – and thanks to a sale from Scandinavian Airlines, I was able to make it happen in an affordable way. Joined by one of their friends, we will also get a full day in Copenhagen on the way back.

In Berlin, I first considered an Airbnb but, with IHG having launched their new Garner brand, I found a family room for four with breakfast for the kind of price one only gets in the depths of winter. Located close to Nollendorfplatz, it is not far from the apartment in the Weimar-era classic Goodbye to Berlin, and I am hoping to take William along for a Schöneberg morning run or two.

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Monday, January 05, 2026

Grading and grinding

After two weeks of blissful winter vacation – and a lot of Portuguese wine – I have a month of hard work and exercise ahead of me. While I will not repeat my White January promise from last year, those ten kilometres on the treadmill made it abundantly clear that there has been a bit too much of the good recently ;-)

Taking the train up to Gothenburg this morning, the Christmas gifts are now waiting for the boys in their respective rooms (a 3D printer for Eddie and a Suunto sports watch for William), and I have about four hours before I drive out to Landvetter to pick them up. Those will be spent grading theses on everything from school libraries to maths games. But before anyone feels even the slightest pity, I should probably post my afternoon "fika", which scored five out of five foxes.

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Thursday, January 01, 2026

Happy new 2026

About ten degrees warmer than last year in Kiruna, but still a few degrees below freezing, New Year’s Eve arrived with frosty, sunlit trails.

Afterwards came pedagogical discussions with a couple of colleagues, followed by a game of “När då då?”, which has become my go-to board game. Opening the bottle of Laurent-Perrier "Millésimé Brut" that had been waiting in dad's and my cabin aboard the Queen Mary 2, I was certainly in for a treat. Dinner followed: lamb from Öströö, maple-glazed carrots, and an innovative potato creation, paired with a glass of Irony from Monterey. With that, my twentieth year of writing Rawls & Me is off to the best possible start.

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