Blaise Cendrars

In 1924, the Swiss author and adventurer Blaise Cendrars boarded an ocean liner bound for Brazil. An early exponent of Modernism, Cendrars wrote his poems as postcards, telegrams or fleeting blog posts (one is tempted to anachronistically add). When I came across Feuilles de route among the library shelves, it spoke to me immediately, perhaps because of the ship taking him to Rio and then São Paulo, but mostly because of my own enduring fascination with movement.

Speaking of journeys, the kids and I spent the better part of the afternoon watching Project Hail Mary. After years of very different people recommending the book to me, I was at least happy to finally watch the film, which, as Isaiah Menning recently pointed out in Breakthrough Journal, carries a message of technological optimism, humility, and love quite distinct from the misanthropy that still shapes much of contemporary environmental discourse.

With the kids calling it an early night, I got a moment alone on the balcony with a glass of Piedmont red. Instead of giving the wooden deck a proper deep clean, this will all be abandoned in a month from now as we are ending our lease and the house is coming up for sale, probably for 15 million SEK or some equally absurd sum. While the rent has been steep, the value of having this calm garden with all the forest trails and swimmable lakes just around the corner has been priceless. Maybe that is why Cendrars resonates tonight, places matter even when they are only temporary stops along the route.

Lottery

In a sudden stroke of luck, I was just given a starting place for Göteborgsvarvet next Saturday. Having run it with Anna in the heat of 2024, I had no road racing plans at all for the moment, as my focus is fully on the Essex Way Ultra in July. But despite my failure to beat my previous PR along the shores of Lago Maggiore back in March, I would have regretted turning down the opportunity of a free race bib. At the same time, I am not going to attempt anything too crazy, as I do not want to risk any injuries leading up to my big race in England.

Otherwise, today I registered my 5,000th activity on Strava, which is kind of wild when you think about it. With the rain now falling, I guess my 5,001st activity will be the gym with William, as we plan to go for a bit of strength training on our way to the library. Having finished all three books in the Hunger Games series, I hope his next book will be slightly less scary, so that his dad does not get PTSD from reading to him in the evenings.

Time on feet

Though the forecast promised sunshine, I got caught in two showers on my way around the harbour this morning, prompting an unplanned stop at Preem in Gårda for a coffee and a chocolate croissant. Then, passing Pöl Harbour, the sky cleared and I had to stop for the compulsory photo op before returning home to the first of two Teams meetings.

Instead of finishing my activity once I got home, I decided to go all in on the concept of “time on feet” (TOF), trading the stress of pacing for 140 minutes of running with lots of food in between, practising what always seems to be my real challenge in every ultra: eating enough. When I finally stopped the clock for good, I was happy to see that I had recorded 24 kilometres, something I hope to repeat tomorrow morning as well, as I keep preparing for the Essex Way Ultra.

After some palak paneer at Masala with William for lunch, he and I took tram 11 to Saltholmen and then the ferry over to Brännö for an afternoon hike by the Western Sea. Just as last year, when I went there with Eddie on his “studiedag”, both Brännö and the adjacent Galterö could not have been prettier, as we took in secluded coves and the marine life (sadly no orcas today though).

Knatterallyt

After taking part in six different chess tournaments, William today finished first overall in Knatterallyt for children born in 2014 and was awarded a big trophy!

Nothing but the rain

Through a foggy tram window, I see Stena Danica casting off. When I return after dropping William off at chess, there is nothing but the rain left, the kind of present absence that has become something of a signature theme here on Rawls & Me. The other day, Elin remarked on “the images of success and the perfect life you project through your feed”, which feels remote as my nipples are bleeding after I forgot to put on Vaseline before my morning run through the rain, my romantic life lies in ruins, and not even the old Dubliner rain jacket is enough to keep me dry.

Ten kilometres of indoor rowing later, I am back thinking that it really is a choice, and that the stakes are much higher today than they were when I was twenty; that there is a fine line between compulsivity and necessity; that the depths one can fall to are much deeper. So, I keep swimming to the best of my ability. For the moment, that means preparing a lecture for the master’s programme in digital learning on Monday and reviewing another manuscript for Energy Research & Social Science.

The road ahead

Having struggled with overtraining, and a bit of orthorexia to tell the truth, last year, I have sought a better balance this year as my life circumstances keep changing. With the Essex Way Ultra coming up in early July, I have decided not to fall into the same trap again, especially as 52 days is too short for any miracles anyway. Instead of suddenly doubling my running volume or setting off on some wild 80-kilometre adventure along Gotaleden, I will try to stick to my current 50–70 kilometres per week, with a focus on time on feet, a few proper long runs, and some back-to-back sessions.

With that in mind, I traded what I feared would become an emotionally heavy coastal morning run for some gym time in my white paws. Now it is back to teaching statistics and reading student manuscripts.

High Lighthouse

Bouncing back to 70 kilometres this week and spotting a happy fox on my Skatås morning jog, I could no longer stand the thought of not having a race to look forward to. As such, I promptly registered for the Full Essex Way Ultra on the third of July, covering 132 kilometres from Epping tube station in London to the High Lighthouse in Harwich. Though I am obviously not alone in my fascination with lighthouses, there is something existential about racing towards the sea and seeing more of the Britain that I have come to appreciate so much over the years. While I still have to work out the precise logistics, Eddie will be away in Hungary that week, so the timing is sort of perfect.

For today, it is back to the U1800 chess tournament with William, whom I had the pleasure of sharing a pizza with last night after four intensive rounds.

Tintinification

With William and Anna soon moving to another city, it felt very good to book an autumn getaway for just William and me. Finding €25 tickets with Ryanair from Arlanda to Dubrovnik on the very last day of the summer schedule, William and I will fly down to Croatia for three days by the Adriatic at the end of October, then continue with easyJet for another €50 to Geneva for a night in Switzerland before returning to Stockholm with Swiss for a similarly ridiculous amount.

Booking the trip together with William was in itself like something taken out of Tintin: searching for adventurous routings with a map of Europe in front of us, giving him a sense of an open world, and hopefully memories to cherish throughout the winter.

Street Art and Buns

Yesterday, I taught my first statistics class using the software JASP, which will replace SPSS in all my classes going forward. Waking up early, I then spent three hours this morning learning more about its functions and building a dataset from our survey on the transition to higher education.

Sticking to my midweek long-run routine, I left the computer behind and headed out for a 23-kilometre street art run in the sunshine, which included a lion mural at Skanstorget created by the Lyon-based artist Kalouf. Sadly, I missed taking a photo of “Hästar som festar”, but I did get to discover some lovely houses in Linnéstaden that I had somehow overlooked in the past. Stopping at Kafé Marmelad for coffee and a banana bun, next to the sign proclaiming the “People’s Republic of Majorna”, I was reminded that fika really is the best part of long runs.

Carbonara

With the survey spectacle making me want to reach for an extra-large “skämskudde”, I made carbonara with guanciale for lunch. Though it is significantly colder today, the weather is absolutely lovely and is expected to stay that way throughout the week.

In other news, I am happy to report that I am now on a steady course to making my first million with Sellpy, as my accidental over-purchasing of beige jeans back in January and reselling them in May is paying off big time. In many cases, I paid 75–100 SEK back then and am now selling them for three times as much. Still, I am not entirely convinced this is the “infinite money glitch” I joked about with the kids, since the profits have a tendency to be reinvested in other purchases from Sellpy, like a Sunspel corduroy Harrington jacket (an irresistible bargain at a fraction of its list price).